ok well as you can tell i haven't written in quite a while. well actually thats normal. i write like one message every other week.

but anyways- ok so i havent really been up to much but this past weekend i went camping at st. joes state park with amanda dennis, jeff bandaret, ben giesler, travis morgan, alex woolford, and kyle meyer. it was soooooo much fun. we went 4 wheeling and swimming and yeah it was just a lot of fun, except for when i freakin FLEW off of the 4wheeler. im not gonna lie it kinda hurt. but ok so i kinda like... well no i really like... this kid that i use to like. and yea its not the first time that its hapened but i really do like him. i dunno hes so fun to talk to but w/e! we shall see if something comes from it, because i doubt it. lol

anyways- work is becoming very annoying. it seems like everyday i go in all of the energy is like sucked out of me. it freakin sucks. the days go by so slow and i seriously dont know how much longer i can take it. my only reason for staying there is because ALL of my friends work there and because i love my boss megan. but other then that i absolutely hate it. i work at least 6 days in a row this week... possibly more. ugh i feel like i live up at the rec center.

and ok i have been thinking and i proble should get started on summer reading. dont get me wrong i have STARTED it but im only like 50-75 pages in with NO journal entries. wow and i have 3 books to read. my chances arent looking so good. i told myself i wouldnt wait until the last minute...but o well too late i already did.

well enuf said im gonna get off of here because i have nothing to say! lol

well i <3 all of you pretty readers! MWAH

Hey my Pretty Most Favorite Reader In The World (yep thats you!!)

well ok sry its been so long since the last update! but ok so get this i was talking to one of my friends on aim and i was like "hey you really are one of my best friends" and then i was like "who are some of your best friends" and they said they didnt have any!! how can you not have a best friend? i dont understand it! i mean they laughed at me because they said i had too many and they didnt even have any! so then i got to thinking...... what is a BEST FRIEND?? because i mean i use to think it was someone that just made it all click. they got you no matter what and you could ALWAYS count on them. but then i thought about it and there's NO ONE out there that isnt going to let you down and that is TOTALLY at ALL times just going to get you! i dunno! let me know what you all think!!

ok next topic: that same friend i mentioned above brought up another good point: how can you tell who really cares about you? i mean seriously there are so many fakes out there. ppl that act one way to ur face and another way behind ur  back! its just weird because i look around and i think about the ppl that i really have FULL ON conversations with... and i dunno its just weird. because i mean yeah i know a lot of ppl. but i mean how many of them actually know me!?!? not very many. which is ok because its the quality not the quantity! but still! i mean i want to be remembered by many!! and in a good way! well i guess thats all because its 1am and my brother is annoying me!

well i love all of you!!                  **MWAH**

               <3      SaMaNtHA rOsE      <3

HeY My preTTy reAdERs (yep thats YOU)- ok well im sure all of you know, but a lot has hapened lately... and surprisingly im really glad!! i think that everything is back to normal! of course there is gonna b more drama from other ppl about other things but o well! i will deal with all of that LATER!!

-concerning all of the drama that i mentioned above: i dont think ne one meant to hurt anyone else, i mean i know that nothing i did was intended to hurt ANYONE! gosh life just wouldnt be the same with out all of this drama! haha well im so glad that all of this is OVER!!

ok well on to other things-basically my summer has consisted of me working.... which i guess is cool because it gives me something to do! i cant help but miss school... i know how dorky right?? well ok think about you ALWAYS have something to do, ur always with ur friends, and ok well thats all i can think of! but still!

hmmm.... i dont even know how to say what im about to say without hurting someone...not like they even read this but still! wait never mind!! all i am gonna say is i am sooo lost and confused! i have no idea because no matter what i do someone is going to be mad at me or is going to get hurt by me! and the thing is i dont even know what i want. and yeah everyone says do what you wanna do...but i honestly have NO IDEA what I really want!! which its kind of weird because the "thing" that i want.... isnt even involved with any of this. but then again i think about it and then i think that i want some"thing" else! ahhhh!! gosh i dont know why i make things so complicated because its not like ne of these "things" are gonna affect my future.....i act like this is going to have a HUGE life or death affect on me, when in reality it wont, not even a little bit! why is it that us highschoolers get caught up with all of this stuff?!? i mean seriously we act like we are going to find our future husbands... and no offense i dont think i would want to marry ne of the guys i have met so far!! OMG YEAH DEFINATELY NOT! im still waiting for ashton kutcher- no joke! just think about it demi moore is gonna die soon and when she does i will b there by his side! haha well at least im hoping thats what is gonna happen!

well ok yeah i think i said more then i planned on saying but o well i dont even care anymore! well i guess comment me because i feel like a loser if no one comments me!

      much love my pretty readers!!

            MwAh- SaMMiE

wow- i totally forgot about xanga!! ahhhh its crazy! well a lot has happened but recently so much more then i had hoped for! in fact recently i hurt someone that was really close to me....all because of a misunderstanding! i feel so bad but at the same time this person hurt me too! i trusted him with a secret that i wasnt even supposed to know and he spread it to EVERYONE ecspecially the person that i didnt want to know in the first place! wow confusing or what?? well i dont really even know what to say because everything i say or do is in hopes of not hurting someone else! i am so bad when it comes to doing stuff for me.....because like i said i HATE hurting other ppl!! well i guess this is it for now because i dont really know how to say all that i need to say!

       Luv  -me-

Hey Everyone... oh my gosh finally my computer is fixed. well i have a lot to catch everyone up on...! ok well today i found out that i am up for winter coronation court! yay oh my i was like freaking out! i know its so cliche but i honestly did not even expect to b nominated. well amanda dennis is up there to so hopefully she wins!! yay! well i am also very nervous because i am the worst when it comes to heels!! no joke i fall all of the time and for the assembly i have to go up there in front of everyone in heels and a dress! EEKS! o well as nervous as i am i am still soo excited!! anyways ok get this the dance was supposed to be sadie hawkins and my friends and i made a deal that if it was sadie hawkins then we would all ask someone...guess what?? i asked kyle meyer! he is also on court so i am super excited! well nothing much has hapened besides that! umm.... i have been busy in stuco...its so fun! we are doing  a prom and bridal show, helping the band kids with a community get together, and getting ready to go to DC!! yay! well i guess i am going to go!!

                            Love Ya,

                                 Sammie